Happy Birthday

I don’t think I’ve ever been more happy for a birthday, especially since it isn’t mine. And even though it isn’t my own, I feel as if I have received quite a gift. The fact that the passing of this birthday had ever been in doubt, makes me appreciate it that much more. There was a time when the whole future seemed shaky, when every day felt like a gift. I remember when the colour left your face, and I remember the days when all we did was wait, for nothing, but hoped that maybe a hint of colour would come back. I remember preparing for the worst, I remember crying over the possibilities. But all those are, are memories. They are not our reality anymore, they are just remnants of what was, and what could have been. We’ve far from forgotten, there are daily reminders of what has changed, and what will never be the same. We don’t cry anymore though, not over these small things. You never did . You were so strong. You never gave up hope, you never thought the worst. You have taught me so much this year. You changed me world, dividing it. Dividing it into what is certain, and what is not. The people in my life were split, between those who wanted to know to know, and those who wanted to know to help. You taught me to listen, instead of speaking in uncertainty. You taught me how to wait, even when I didn’t know what I was waiting for. Even now, when we are so focused on what is still not right, you choose to concentrate on the small victories, on what has been regained, on getting so much of your life back. So I’m sure that you will celebrate your birthday, just as you have celebrated the 16 others. But I will celebrate your birthday with just a bit more enthusiasm this year. And everything birthday after this, even as the memories grow older, and the dosages grow smaller, I will remember how far we’ve come, and how blessed we are. Happy Birthday