The Cost

One stupid mistake, and its going to cost you. One moment of pure idiocy, or selfishness, or laziness, and it could ruin everything. Who knows what its going to mean for you. I don't know whether its going to cost you time, or your heart, or your future. The stakes only go from high to higher.

The tragic part is, you're not the only one who has to pay the cost. It will be a two-fold payment. There is a second heart, a second life that you obviously failed to consider in that moment. In a rare occurrence, you stand completely alone, on your side, which houses all the blame. You hold full responsibility. There isn't ever a question.

Trust, how quickly you took advantage of it, how quickly you took it for granted. How much different really is trust broken and heart broken? How could you let this happen?

The decision is already made. Not consciously yet, but somewhere knowing and understanding the heart and head made a choice. One surrendered to the other. There were only two choices, each equally painful. Now all there is to do is wait. Wait for the losing part to cry itself out, to cry for what was, what is, and what still might be. To cry itself into submission, and to disappear, leaving only one option. There was only ever one option that could be lived with. Then the choice will be recognized.

Nothing to do until then but wait until what is known is finally understood.