I Can't Watch This

Dear God, do you remember that one time I prayed that prayer? You know, the one about messing with someones life a bit. The one about something heartbreaking and life changing? Ya, I thought you might remember. Well, I take it back, I take it all back. I take back the "this would be best for them"s, and the "afterwards they would finally get it"s. Because this is not what I had in mind, this is not what I asked for. I can't watch them struggle with this and bravely find the strength that I"m not even sure I would be able to find. Its too hard, especially with this on my conscience. So if I had anything to do with this I immediately withdraw my support. And I withdraw my call for any other events of this nature. I didn't realize that it would hurt me too. Because I really care, not in the same way I used to, but enough. Please God reverse the direction these events seem to be taking.