The Climb

You know those awkward moments between two people when both have something to say but neither one says anything. Ya, I think I just had one of those. Just another one of those frustrating things about life I suppose. Like, how I'm usually very aware and observant of everyone around me. I can almost always read people accurately, and understand how and why things happen the way they do. The exception is when it comes to any hypothetical guy I may be interested in. Then I fail, epically. It's like suddenly losing my 20/20 vision and navigating life blind. Wicked frustrating. Someone even got me to admit I'm scared. That should explain everything I have or haven't done. I'm scared of "no" and "not right now". I'm scared of silence or hesitation. Our fears may not be identical, but we're both afraid of a great fall. I feel like I'm climbing a ladder, and I keep checking how far up I am. As I keep climbing, steps below me begin to disappear; I wonder, What happens if it's not safe to climb down and I'm too high to jump? Then I have two options: fall from this height, or continue climbing facing the constant possibility of a much worse fall the higher I climb. For now I'm still climbing.