A Lengthy Explanation

It has come to my attention that my blog requires and explanation, which I am happy to provide. This is a blog; it is my blog. It began as a collection of journals I have written. However, paper and ink are not invincible which made me nervous. Being a paranoid person, I always had the worry of a fire or tornado or hurricane or monsoon or tsunami or terrorist attack or other such unfortunate event, destroying my journals. So I decided to make a hard copy on the computer. I chose not to do it in Word perfect or any other word processing program. This is because I own a PC, and aged PC that has already earned a reputation for viruses and unexpected crashes. So out of this thought process came the blog. I was not however, satisfied yet because what if one day I got amnesia and forgot the website. Then all my hard work would have gone to waste. So, I fool-proofed my plan by posting the URL on another website, another well known and frequently visited website, you might have heard of it : Facebook. And that is really, truly, the primary explanation for why my blog is a blog. The secondary explanation is, if possible, even more complicated. I also began a blog on a public site because there was a small part of me that feared, but also loved the idea of other people reading my thoughts. I'm a huge fan of honesty. I have a serious problem being vulnerable in person, so I thought I'd try my hand at it online. I admit to how sketchy that sounds at first. But it's not like I am posting my credit card number or deepest darkest secrets online. And secondly, it does take some amount of effort to find the link to my blog, eliminating the probability that every random person on facebook will find and read my blog. But that does happen sometimes, and there are some people that disagree with what I write. That is okay! The very title of my blog, "Disclaimer : This is Just Me" is meant to show that my blog is about what I think. It may not be right, but it's real, and it's honest. Some people may want certain entries removed, or changed. In a newspaper that would be called a retraction. But this is not a newspaper, and I am not being paid to record facts in a complete and unbiased way. This is like an editorial, an opinion piece. And whether or not you agree with it, I will not apologize for, or eliminate my opinion. This blog is often cynical and depressing. It tends to look at things in a more negative light. Writing is the outlet for the darker side of my personality. I try to be hopeful and optimistic in person, however I find blogging to be a healthy and helpful channel for all my emotions. I do not live in the moment. I rarely act before looking 15 million miles down the road. But I do write in the moment. I write about the moments. There are moments that I want to always remember and moments when I learn something vital I never want to forget. I do not write thinking about how I will feel about the moment tomorrow, or a year from now. That is the explanation for my tunnel vision, or narrow writing. The explanation, not the apology. This is my blog, it is about me and the tings/people most important to me. You can learn alot about me by reading it. You can begin to understand. But that is a choice; learning and understanding will not come with the reading of one or two posts. Allow mt to use a slightly questionable comparison, mt blog is like the Bible. It shouldn't be taken out of context, you need to read the whole thing before you make assumptions or come to any conclusions. Otherwise it may seem unbalanced or contradictory or unreasonable. So you can read it, or not. Try to understand, or not. I'm always happy to discuss it. This is who I am, and this is the way I see my world. Try not to hold that against me.