I'm trying to hold onto things more loosely, to not clutch everything so tightly to my chest. Still I'm terrified at any moment all of this will disappear. I've never been scared to start a new chapter of my life. Anxious-excited: yes, but not this gnawing dread. I fear that God's breath is just going to whisk away all of these plans, all of these people that I'm desperately trying not to become too possessive of.
A part of me knows that some of these people were only ever meant to be in my life for a season, to walk a leg of the journey with me, and that God will bring new people into my path as the wind changes.
I have to change my reaction from clenching my fists, to turning empty palms open, placing myself in a vulnerable position, waiting to see what's next.
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