Lately I have been experiencing stress that is unparalleled since the days of piano exams, and grade 3 baseball games. These were events that would reduce even the best part of me to a timid, self-conscious ball of nerves. And something in my life now, and I'm pretty sure I know what, is causing a reawakening of this weaker me. Since I have been self-diagnosed with a disorder of perpetually medium emotions, I have been questioning what could cause the destabilizing of a person who is usually so unstressed.
I am convinced it has something to do with the fact my pride and I are a little too tight. The thought of my pride getting hurt is apparently too much for me to handle.
Perhaps humility is in fact the ultimate cure for stress. Humility, I am learning is not a devaluing of oneself, but rather the correct allocation of one's worth, and the precise view of one's talents and actions. A view that is neither heightened to pride, nor diminished ti self-loathing. Humility is knowing one's true abilities and still directing credit to the creator.
So, new plan. I am going to carry myself in humility, realizing that the smaller my pride, the closer to the ground I'll be, and the less it will hurt should I fall.
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