In my experience I have found anticipation to be a wonderful tool. It can be a very useful emotion when channeled appropriately. However, I have also found that anticipation sometimes holds me back. When I have an event, or the end of an event to anticipating, it can be very motivating. When work piles up, or life gets tough its nice to have something to look forward to. But I'm guilty of taking it too far sometimes.
When I'm constantly anticipating the future I waste the potential of the present. There's days, like this one, when I look back and wonder if I was doing anything more than just existing? Did I do or say anything that mattered today? Was I an encouragement to anyone? Did I make the world better in any way? Did I show even the slightest glimpse of Christ through my words and actions? --- If not, then what a terrible use of my time. What an awful waste.
Sometimes I can't figure out whether I want to jump five years into the future or 5 years into the past. And I can't think of a worse outlook to have. How ungrateful is that for the time I'm given?!
I know I need to start getting better at living in the present,(though not for the present). Perhaps I'm worried that the one will turn into the other.
I know there is purpose in every single day, I'm just too busy anticipating tomorrow to search for it.
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