A Miny Epiphany

There was a time when the immensity of it all would have scared me. There was a time when I was only at peace with what I'd already known or expected. but, time changes things, as does a global perspective in this case., and the immensity of life doesn't seem quite as intimidating anymore. It no longer seems like an earth stopping tragedy if my plans don't turn out the way I expect them too. And what I know is so pathetic in comparison to what I have yet to learn. For the longest time I have been living my life trying to stay within the shadow of a future I cannot predict nor control. My long term goals and dreams have always been solid, well defined, practically carved in stone. What has really been missing was short term goals, things that motivate me from day to day. things that keep me living in the moment, as opposed to wishing it was 5 years down the road. I feel closer now than ever to understanding what it is to live with purpose. I finally feel like the main character in my life. I plan to no longer meet people's expectations, I plan to dismiss them or surpass them. I plan to get rid of the plan. Nothing ever goes according the plan anyways. So I'm going to play it by ear and by heart.