There's a drawing on the wall in my room. It's a road with two sets of footprints. A white set and a black set. The pairs of footprints begin side by side, but then the black pair begin to veer off followed by the white pair until the edge of the path when the black pair continue off but the white pair goes back to the middle of the path. Next to the picture there are words....
"I stand here and watch you walk away. The tears run down my face because I know I cannot take the same path. You've tried this path before. Sometimes i could pull you back, keep you safe; but not this time. I yell "Come back!" over and over, but you don't even turn around. I fall to my knees knowing I will have to get back up and continue on without you. But I will pray, and there will always be a place next to me on the road saved for you."
2 years ago i drew that picture and wrote that caption, and there are days when I feel like we're still those two people. Black vs. white, fighting the same battles we were then and being separated. But then there are other days, much much better days, and today is one of those days. If I were to re-draw that picture today it would have a third set of smaller footprints in the middle. The steps would be taken together, side by side. If I got ambitious and added the people to whom the footprints belong, they would be holding hands. Joined together permanently on this life journey by a new life. If i were to write a different caption it would read....
"Hope baby rocks your world. Hope your whole life changes and you embrace it. I hope you laugh alot. I hope you work through the tough stuff. I hope you learn from this child and I hope you live the kind of life for them to look up to. I hope you chose the right godmother. Here's to staying connected the rest of our lives. I love you. "
Well life, that was a new one. That's so typical of me, thinking I've got this all mapped out...false. A wise woman once described her life to me like this, "I always envisioned my life as this one path that encounters all my goals and dreams. But I've found that you spend alot more time on detours and scenic routes. Every so often you hit the main road again, but just for long enough to see that you're on the right track". I'm not too sure what the right track is anymore. Or whether I'm on it or on a detour. I probably just need some perspective. Dear God, road map please? At least I've gotten good at following my own advice; one of my favourite quotes is, "Let life surprise you". Check, I'm surprised. But I'm happy mostly, honoured, overwhelmed to be honest. It's good to know that not everybody takes you for granted. That friendship and love still wield power in many ways. Even though there were tough times, even though there will be tougher times, it's nice to know that God keeps his promises. "All things work together for good for those who love the Lord" Romans 8:28
"I stand here and watch you walk away. The tears run down my face because I know I cannot take the same path. You've tried this path before. Sometimes i could pull you back, keep you safe; but not this time. I yell "Come back!" over and over, but you don't even turn around. I fall to my knees knowing I will have to get back up and continue on without you. But I will pray, and there will always be a place next to me on the road saved for you."
2 years ago i drew that picture and wrote that caption, and there are days when I feel like we're still those two people. Black vs. white, fighting the same battles we were then and being separated. But then there are other days, much much better days, and today is one of those days. If I were to re-draw that picture today it would have a third set of smaller footprints in the middle. The steps would be taken together, side by side. If I got ambitious and added the people to whom the footprints belong, they would be holding hands. Joined together permanently on this life journey by a new life. If i were to write a different caption it would read....
"Hope baby rocks your world. Hope your whole life changes and you embrace it. I hope you laugh alot. I hope you work through the tough stuff. I hope you learn from this child and I hope you live the kind of life for them to look up to. I hope you chose the right godmother. Here's to staying connected the rest of our lives. I love you. "
Well life, that was a new one. That's so typical of me, thinking I've got this all mapped out...false. A wise woman once described her life to me like this, "I always envisioned my life as this one path that encounters all my goals and dreams. But I've found that you spend alot more time on detours and scenic routes. Every so often you hit the main road again, but just for long enough to see that you're on the right track". I'm not too sure what the right track is anymore. Or whether I'm on it or on a detour. I probably just need some perspective. Dear God, road map please? At least I've gotten good at following my own advice; one of my favourite quotes is, "Let life surprise you". Check, I'm surprised. But I'm happy mostly, honoured, overwhelmed to be honest. It's good to know that not everybody takes you for granted. That friendship and love still wield power in many ways. Even though there were tough times, even though there will be tougher times, it's nice to know that God keeps his promises. "All things work together for good for those who love the Lord" Romans 8:28
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