My Anthem

I will never be that person. I have chosen not to be first. You think I'm wrong, but I'm not who you think I am. I am a leader out of necessity more than out of personal preference. It's what has worked for me. It's gotten me this far and will hold me together for a while longer. There are easier roles I could have chosen. Roles that are instantly more rewarding. But I could never be that person. I am controlling because I care, not because I hate you. I shout because that's how I was raised not because I'm angry. If I am angry, I will shower you in freshly baked goods. You don't always know my answer because I'm not who you think I am. I'll tell you the truth the first time you ask, so you don't have to ask again. I will not always tell you everything. I can't do that, and I won't do that, because you don't need that. My shield is intimidation, my sword is sarcasm. But these are the weapons of someone who doesn't really want to fight. I will not pick a fight, but I will confront you if it's necessary. I am often scared, but not of the things that you think. I like being by myself, I don't usually feel lonely. I spend time around other people more for them, than for me. Sometimes I'm really good at reading people. Sometimes I'm too easy to read. But I don't like being that person. I know things I don't want to know. I learn fast, I break easy. I hold on, I don't forget. I have a great memory but I will never be that person who holds a grudge. I will never be that person that falls apart in public. I will never be that person that cries out loud for help. I will never be the person who doesn't speak their mind. I will never try to hurt you. I will never try to lie to you. I will never be that person who follows. I will never be that person who takes the easy way out. I am not who you think I am, and I will never be that person.