Loaded Questions

When is forever? How do we get there? How can something have no beginning and no end? How can we not understand the concept of just always being, and trust it? But being where? Heaven? Who's going? When do we get there? Right after we die? Or at the end of time? And what's with tribulation? Why would God make his people suffer? Why couldn't he banish Satan now? And Lucifer, the fallen angel, how could someone have fallen from God's grace when there is no sin in heaven? Have others fallen? Will others fall? If that's even possible, we must have free will in heaven, and yet we're going to be pure and clean. Can anyone be redeemed if they fall? What would happen if the devil repented, truly repented? What should our feelings be towards Satan? Should it be hate even though we're told to love our enemies? Should it be pity or compassion, while we're told to have nothing to do with him? Or should we simply humble ourselves to never understanding? But how can we become humble? Because if one was truly humble, the would never acknowledge it. And what's the use of striving for perfection if we'll never reach it? And if God seperates us from our sins, as far as the east is from the west, if he washes us clean and white as snow, and promises not to hold our sins against us, then what will we be judged on come judgement day? Will our old sins be reviewed? Or sins that were never confessed? And why would a loving God do this if he doesn't want us to feel guilty, or worthless, or embarressed? How can any of these things be answered? What is this thing I believe?